State

What are you right now? What am I right now? A bodymass of cells staring at a screen? Or, right now, are we a consequence of our circumstances? Our thoughts? Or are we, what we are right now, out of choice?

What state do I refer to? Mental? Emotional? Physical? Biological? Metaphysical? Spiritual?

So many questions, thoughts and trains rush through our heads each day, many filled with monotony. We try and deny it, but today we have become machines with a human dimension. Human Machines, not Human Beings.

Do we live each day or do we try to get by each day?

Do we trust the abundance that exists? Or are we so accustomed, so conditioned to living in a suffered, deprived state? - a state in which we want to constantly run toward more that we doubt the abundance, the answers which lie within us?

The state that we are in right now - whatever it might be - how much of it is circumstantial and how much of it is chosen?

Physical state, is, in essence, a mirror of your mental and emotional state. You 'feel' happy - you smile. You 'feel' sad - you cry. You 'feel' angry - you frown, or yell.

Ofcourse, external 'stimuli' trigger reactions which affect our emotional state, but do these triggers affect our emotional state or our emotional ego? Does our ego love the ''Drama'' and ''Attention'' we get from situations and people? If it does, does it live on this ''Dramatic Energy'' ? Is that its survival strategy? 

Who are we fooling? Only ourselves. We know that we all like the attention, the drama, the excitement, the thrill. How much of this is ''real'' thrill and how much of it is food for our ego?

I once read somewhere, that, Meditation isn't the way to quieten your mind, but the way to find the quiet that already exists within. This really struck me, and I started to think. 

Imagine the vast world that exists inside us. Numerous cells, breathing, nourishing, regenerating, evolving, dying, changing - every moment. The food we consume lends us energy. The air we breathe lends us energy. The thoughts we think, the emotions we feel, shapes the energy of our bodies. And, if energy is what it is ultimately all about, what kind of energy are you giving yourself right now? The more we travel inward, the more we realise - there is a space within us. There is a huge space within us. A space filled with fears, doubts, troubles which weighs us down. All these exist entangled with our ego. There is no one who can elevate you or cause you to fall. You do it. Accept this, and all else dissolves with ease. One of the toughest things to accomplish? Yes :) 

Our true state is buried under these different self created layers. Layers filled with judgement, malice, jealousy, doubt, regret, failure, bitterness. All the negativity which is ultimately an ''energy''. Negativity which finds its roots in Fear. Fear, which in truth, I believe, is the opposite of Love. 

The laws by which our inner universe operates in tandem with the outer world are very simple and clear. If we unmask ourselves of the face we know we are 'putting on', it teaches us more about our own self. It is no one's gain but our own. Where love exists, fear cannot. When prophets and religions speak about love, they speak of a love which is just that. Love. It knows nothing else. Love on its own is so powerful (when given the chance) that it needs no attachment, seeks no explanation and knows only peace. In truth, that is Love. And it is a Love that can only be Felt. The kind of Love which shapes each cell, breathing into it more energy, more life, making it more alive. The energy this Love possesses is overwhelming, and there are many who want Love but are not willing to give it a chance.

So, right now - Are you in a state of Love? Or a state of Fear? 

What's your State?

• © Sneha Singh 2010