It's been devoid of Light over the past few weeks for me, where I've been looking, (actually, frantically searching) for something to brighten me up. Diwali came and passed by just as quietly as it had arrived. I lit up my living room with many tiny candles that day, and it made me feel light. That's when I decided to light candles in my room each night before I went to sleep. The warmth and glow of the tiny candle lit up my room just appropriately lending me a strange sense of security amidst the internal chaos that had started to overwhelm me. Just while I was thinking of the Light that I had blocked out in my Life, very voluntarily, I received a text message from an unknown number thanking me for a candle I gifted them ages ago, which they were using today as they were facing an unexpected power cut. The sender had a test to study for and wrote that he/she had not intended to burn the angel shaped candle but was glad he/she had it when they needed the Light. I tried to reply back saying that I was glad to be of service, but it was an invalid number. I tried ringing the number and my call would not go through. My frantic outward effort to respond to this person quietened with an deep breath and a quiet smile as I remembered that three years ago I gave out approximately ten to fifteen angel shaped candles to friends as Christmas presents. Maybe someday I'll know who was the person that sent me that text.
The Light in my room has been giving me the nudge to sit in deep silence and find my way back into Love. Amidst the silence, I can hear so much chatter in my head that I have to remind myself to quiet down. I have to remind myself to stay put. Stay put in Love. Remain there.
This is not final.
Only the Light of Love and all that stems from it is eternal. Someone very special to me said to me today - We live in a world which is fleeting and we are beings that have only one truth that we are sure of, that is, destruction. We are not immortal or eternal. From his words I understood, that we cannot be eternal but our intentions and actions can become eternal. What we give unto this world and its beings can become eternal. What we live as, can become eternal. And if we live in the Light of Love, we are living in the present moment. The present moment, which always is and always will be ~ Eternal.
© Sneha Singh 2010
